Is it weird I want to die?

not like suicide, but I always hope the next day is the last. Like I'm hoping to get murdered or some heart attack. I'm very happy, but I just really want to go to heaven. I feel like this world is so corrupted and I don't want to be part of it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I deserve hell because I've done disgraceful and disgusting things in my life. I am grateful for life on earth, but there is more death than life on earth. By death I mean our unrighteousness. I enjoy life, but sometimes I feel like being in perfection. Is it wrong for me wanting to die? For the reason above.